All-American Runner Finn Highlighted in Video About Recurring Injury

ANN ARBOR, Mich. – Athletes Connected, a University of Michigan collaborative program between the Depression Center, Intercollegiate Athletics and School of Public Health, on Wednesday unveiled the second of three videos that address student-athletes coping with injury and the impact on mental health.

“If my best is not good enough, it does not mean I am not good enough as I am someone who runs, not merely a runner.”

In this installment, U-M long distance runner and nine-time All-American Erin Finn details how she twice faced injury at the height of her athletic success in college. While her first stress fracture took her away from a top-ranked cross country team, the second one derailed her chances for a junior season and a trip to the 2016 Olympic Trials.

Finn details her initial feelings of being depressed and wanting to escape the sadness. Ultimately, her time with a campus ministry program, Athletes in Action, allowed her to realize that, “If my best is not good enough, it does not mean I am not good enough as I am someone who runs, not merely a runner.”

Finding purpose in something outside her sport helped Finn redefine who she was beyond running. That revelation has made all the difference in her recovery, which she made complete by competing last week in the Wolverine Invitational, the inaugural meet at the U-M Indoor Track Building. Finn ran fourth in the invitational mile in 4:40.17, which was less than two seconds off her personal best (4:38.35).

Finn and her fellow Wolverine student-athletes are set to compete in the Simmons-Harvey Quad against Ohio State, Michigan State and Arkansas on Saturday.

Recurring Injury; ERIN FINN, Track & Field

About Athletes Connected

Formed in 2014 on an NCAA pilot grant by a collaboration of University of Michigan Depression Center, Athletics and School of Public Health, Athletes Connected actively works to provide student-athletes with the tools and resources possible to overcome mental illness. Athletes Connected does this by promoting awareness of mental health issues, reducing the stigma of help-seeking and promoting positive coping skills among student-athletes.

Q&A: U-M Athletic Trainer Jeremy Marra

The Athletes Connected program recognizes the many different entities that factor into student-athlete mental health. As part of our Q&A series, Athletes Connected will share how coaches, administrators, athletic trainers and other athletic staff approach their roles in the lives of student-athlete health.

To continue the series, Athletes Connected caught up with senior associate athletic trainer Jeremy Marra, who currently works with the men’s lacrosse program. [See our previous Q&A with U-M head diving coach Mike Hilde]

Q: What role do you see yourself playing in the lives of the athletes you work with?
A: In college, we are building a performance based mindset. Our goal is to help improve athletic performance, help athletes stay on the field, reach their academic and athletic goals, and reach their highest potential both during and after their collegiate career.

I see my role as an athletic trainer as being the point of contact for all health-related services, whether that be athletic training, nutrition, counseling, performance, exercise science, or physicians. We are the ones most integrated within the team. People look to athletic trainers to bridge the gap between injuries and illnesses and our health and welfare services. From there we really take on the individual care of musculoskeletal injury and health-related issues, both through rehabilitative services and referrals. We are fortunate to have the staff and resources that we do and can help student-athletes navigate the health system.

There is no shame in talking about anything. That is the biggest piece…There is no shame in bringing it up or asking the question.

Q: You spend a lot of time with many of your student athletes, how do you see mental health affecting them both personally and athletically?
A: Because we have the opportunity to spend a lot of time with our student-athletes, athletic trainers get to know them in a different way than other support staff. It is the athletic trainers job to develop a professional, trusting relationship with our student-athletes. Because of these relationships, student-athletes may feel more comfortable sharing personal information with their athletic trainer, some of which may include mental health concerns.. I believe it is important to help them figure out how to share these same challenges with their coaches. It is important that when they are ready to share those struggles with their coach, that they feel comfortable doing so. If the coach doesn’t understand where an athlete is coming from, how can they coach them effectively, or how can they be a mentor to them? We also want to make sure student athletes are prepared to have those communication skills for when they leave Michigan and need to speak with their boss, a coworker, or partner.

Another advantage of our athletic training role is that we are able to see individuals over time. Our relationship grows over the four to five years we know a student athlete, and can sometimes notice when something isn’t quite right. If I am doing my job as an athletic trainer, I’m not only physically helping to heal them, but also serving as a sounding board and assisting with proper referral so they can get the support they need. This skill does not just come naturally; every athlete and athletic trainer does not have a trusting relationship.Some, and maybe this is the definition of success in our field, are able to develop those interpersonal relationships that have a healthy balance of professional respect and trust. If we can develop a healthy relationship with our athletes, they are more comfortable openly discussing mental health concerns. Athletic trainers can then be their advocate to make sure that they don’t suffer in silence and know there are resources available.

Q: Do you think there is still a stigma around mental health and seeking help? If so, what do you think will help student athletes feel more comfortable seeking help?
A: Absolutely. We have done a great job as a department to try to break down the negative stigma of mental health over the past few years. I think Athletes Connected is an unparalleled program. I also believe in getting in front of the student athletes and making sure that they know all of the support staff. Putting things out in their face to normalize some of these feelings that everyone goes through is important. I still see the biggest challenge in this area with some of the male, testosterone-driven sports, where stigma prevents athletes from reaching out. I think that stigma still exists, that having a mental health concern makes you weak or makes you different from everyone else. You can see when someone has a musculoskeletal injury, but you can’t see when someone is struggling with mental illness. Even if an athlete is not struggling with mental illness but simply wants to improve their performance, I still think they don’t feel like they can say “yeah, I talk to Emily once a month about performance enhancement and how to make me mentally stronger. Why wouldn’t I do that?” We haven’t broken that barrier yet.

We are working on it, and the more athletes, especially men, that can come forward and really talk about their struggles or the services that they utilized to get them to where they are, will help. I think we still have a long way to go but have made significant strides in the last few years.

Q: How do you see the medical team as an integrated unit benefiting student athletes’ overall health and wellness, in particular mental health?

I talk with recruits about the performance team quite a bit. I talk about the athletic trainers, how we are the front line people there at every practice, we are traveling to all the competitions, we  probably develop a relationship with the parents. Once I discuss our role with the student athletes and team, I then talk about being a liaison to the other support areas: nutrition, PPAC, academics, medical staff, etc. That is how we are able to demonstrate that we are a team.  These resources are not only available if there is something wrong but also to help you perform at your highest level.  

Any time an injury occurs, it is never just one of the team members involved. For example, with an ACL tear, I am the first one to assess the student athlete and refer to a team physician.  Once the doctor diagnoses it as an ACL tear, we prep for surgery. Part of that conversation in prepping for surgery is talking about the post-operative care they are going to receive, which will be at least a 6-month rehabilitative process. We’ll then talk with our dietitian to discuss fueling changes pre and post-surgery. The student athlete will then meet with academics and get their schedules in order. We also want to make sure their professors know that they will have surgery and miss some class. There is also the psychological component and we almost always refer someone for at least one appointment. It is the athletics trainer, the physicians, nutrition, academics, psychology/counseling, and strength and conditioning all working together to provide the best care for the student athletes in conjunction with our coaches.  

Q: What is a common misconception about student athlete mental health, that athletes may think exists?
A: A lot of athletes believe it is a weakness if you can’t perform on the field due to psychological barriers.  They believe you just need to ‘Man Up’, handle it, and get over it. This is such a misconception. We should have conversations with student athletes who have identified histories of mental health concerns or who have experience working with sports psychologists or social workers for sport performance.  However, I still believe there is the stigma that people who struggle with mental illness are weak.  I see it more with male sports than female sports. This is where coaches can be impactful. It is so important to have our coaches be spokespeople for this initiative and create a more inclusive environment by normalizing concerns and help facilitate resources for mental health.  

Q: What is something you would like athletes to know about mental health from an athletic trainer’s perspective?
A: There is no shame in talking about anything. That is the biggest piece. Whether you did bad on a test, are stressed about your significant other, having suicidal thoughts, or simply looking for a competitive mental edge in sport and want to talk. There is no shame in bringing it up or asking the question. We try to instill the idea in our young athletic trainers that they really need to be the student athletes’ advocate. Our athletes cannot look at us as a coach. We work closely with our coaching staff, but we do not report to the coach. We report through the Student Athlete Health and Welfare team and our team physicians. It is my hope that no student athlete feels that they cannot talk to their athletic trainer.

Q: For athletic departments who may not have the resources we have here what would you recommend athletic departments do to support athletic trainers and their roles as gatekeepers?  What would you recommend athletic trainers do to find resources to help student athletes?
A: The NCAA has a great mental health website. In the last few years they have created documents such as the Mental Health Best Practices as well as Mind, Body, Sport for universities to use. Anyone has access to these documents.  It is a great resource for athletic trainers to reference.  The Athletes Connected website is another quick resource every support staff member should have readily accessible.

All athletic trainers are trained in base level triage of psychological disorders as part of our entry level training. Being able to recall this information is crucial, especially if mental health resources are not readily available.  However, most of our baseline training relates to psychological issues related to an injury and coping with a physical injury.  

The first time I lost an athlete to suicide I had to really think about how I was going to handle the situation; how I was going to respond. What was my role? I still had to be a medical professional, ensuring others affected by the tragedy had appropriate support, as well as figure out how to cope myself. It is our job as athletic trainers to identify those resources and have an emergency action plan in place.. If an athletic trainer is working at a school that has not identified support for their student athletes or developed policies and procedures related to mental health, then that athletic trainer should take the initiative. Every school and university has some resource for mental health, for example, counseling and psychological services. Understand who you can go to and then build relationships with them. Go and meet with area social workers and psychologists. Work with your team physician on appropriate referrals and psychiatry. Identify a referral pattern and work with your local community, with the approval of your athletic director. As the gatekeepers, we are our athletes best advocates.   

How we are helping our student athletes when they leave our university?  While in school we are supporting them to function at a high athletic level and be a champion in the classroom, but when they leave how are they taking care of themselves? Smaller institutions can prepare student athletes by teaching them about the importance of mental health care and direct them to community resources.  My hope is that athletic departments don’t have to wait for the worst thing to happen in order to make more resources available. We have come a long way from the past, but unfortunately it took a death by suicide to catapult mental health to the spotlight. Every athletic trainer works under a physician. Use that physician and their contacts to get the help that your student athletes need.  

Players’ Tribune: “If I Should Die…”

Below is an excerpt of Kendra Fisher’s story in The Players’ Tribune about her battles with anxiety, OCD and depression.


By Kendra Fisher, retired Canadian National Team hockey player

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In 1999, right before my 20th birthday, I received an invite to a Team Canada camp in Calgary. This one was special. The players they picked at the end of those two weeks would travel to play in the Four Nations Cup.

I was on the brink of realizing my dreams, and yet I was terrified. Things had gotten so much worse.

I need help.

Just weeks before the camp, I called my parents.

“Mom, Dad …” I told them everything.

At the time, I had moved to a private school in Toronto for my senior year, and I was also playing in what used to be Canada’s National Women’s Hockey League (NWHL). I graduated. Found an apartment. Was living a very independent life.

But, hockey was becoming less and less of a safe space for me, and I developed this deep fear of being alone. When my teammates skated away from me to follow the play, my heart would beat louder.

Faster.

I just couldn’t see it. “Tomorrow” didn’t exist. No matter how hard I tried I couldn’t picture waking up the next day.

I was convinced that when the play made it back to me, I would be dead.

I had to have someone with me 24/7. If a friend was over and had to use the washroom, I’d follow them down the hallway because I was just too scared to be by myself and my thoughts.

Was I dying?

My stomach was in knots.

Some days it felt like I was having a heart attack. One day I took myself to the E.R. The doctors said things were fine, but they sent me to see specialists just in case.

The cardiologist told me my heart was fine.

The neurologist told me my head was fine.

The gastrointestinal specialist told me my digestive tract was fine.

Everybody was telling me I was fine.

Suck it up.

And that’s what I did as I flew off to Calgary. But I needed my parents to be at the airport in case I couldn’t convince myself to get on a plane.

When I called them, they were nothing but supportive. They wanted to do whatever they could to support my dream. Together we devised a plan.

Dad left for Calgary a day before I did, to be there to meet me when I arrived. Mom would come later after getting me safely on the plane. They stayed in their own hotel room during camp. I couldn’t risk one of my coaches or teammates seeing them because no one brings chaperones to camp. I was afraid/terrified that if anyone saw them they would know that something was wrong.

After I faked my way through the first two-hour practice, I found a stairwell and broke down. Then I washed my face and went to off-ice training. And then I found a bathroom stall and broke down again.

By that night I knew I couldn’t do it anymore. My roommate would probably see me freaking out in our dorm room. I couldn’t hide anymore.

I went into the coach’s office in the arena and told her that my grandma, who lived in Calgary, had been rushed to the hospital and I wanted to make sure my family was O.K. I lied through my teeth:

“I’ll be back in the morning,” I said.

I spent that night in my dad’s hotel room in pieces. I couldn’t breathe.

What’s wrong with me?

I didn’t sleep a wink.

The next morning, I did go back to the arena. But this time I told my coaches the truth. I told them why I had to go home.

They asked me if it would make any difference if they told me that I had already made Team Canada.

It was one of the most memorable moments of my life … but not because it’s one that I want to remember.

“No,” I said.

It didn’t help at all.

What the hell have I just done?

I just gave up on the only thing I had ever wanted.

I found out five days after I left camp that the national team coaches wanted to try to help me. They had booked me an appointment with a sports psychologist. I have to admit, I was kind of insulted.

I don’t need a shrink. I’m not crazy.

I remember my first appointment with the psychologist. It was the most awkward staring contest of my life. I didn’t know what to say. But I knew that the doctor reported to Team Canada, and I had to convince her that I was O.K.

So I told her about the car accident that had injured my back when I was in high school. We did some serious therapy after that, and after two weeks, I was cured. She gave me a pass and I was free to go.

Then I realized how sick I really was.

I couldn’t eat. My stomach was so upset it couldn’t process food. I dropped from 160 pounds to 120. The insomnia ensued and I couldn’t leave the apartment without my body revolting.

On January 3, 2000, I called my parents in Kincardine. My mother answered the phone and I could  barely get out the words.

“I’m not going to be here tomorrow.”

It wasn’t even so much that I wanted to die. It was just that I actually couldn’t imagine making it through one more night. You know how you think about tomorrow and you have this playlist of the things that are going to happen? Like, I’ve got a doctor’s appointment, or I’m meeting so-and-so for coffee tomorrow.

I just couldn’t see it. “Tomorrow” didn’t exist. No matter how hard I tried I couldn’t picture waking up the next day.

My mother rushed to Toronto and somehow forced me to see my old psychologist. That day, I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety, severe panic disorder, agoraphobia (a fear of leaving safe spaces), obsessive-compulsive disorder and clinical depression.

My mother sat in my doctor’s office as I lay on the couch. She wanted to know how she could help.

“You pretty much need to forget everything you know about your daughter,” my therapist said. ”It’s like you need to go back to when she was a three-year-old who relied on her parents to get through each day.”

This can’t be me. I just made Team Canada.


Read the rest of the Kendra’s story on The Players’ Tribune.

SwimSwam: Club Wolverine is Leading the Way in Mental Health Training

Shared here is an excerpt of a story in SwimSwam.com about how Athletes Connected program coordinator and athletic department counselor Emily Klueh is assisting Club Wolverine swim club in its mental health training.


By Torrey Hart swimmers swimming

Awareness surrounding mental health is on the rise in elite sports, and swimming has been no exception. Michael Phelps and Allison Schmitt, among others, have contributed by speaking about their own experiences, but the University of Michigan stands out on the collegiate level for its Athletes Connected program.

Now, program coordinator Emily Klueh is taking her talents to one of Michigan’s top club teams: Club Wolverine.

The club’s program is an “educational introduction” to the various facets of mental health. Group sessions, tailored to be appropriate for each given age group (middle-schoolers and up), might include discussion of any of the following:

  • Goals
  • Managing relationships/teammates (with an emphasis on bullying)
  • Grit
  • What does depression and anxiety look like, signs and symptoms. How do I help a friend? How do I open up if struggling?
  • Understanding the impact of what we say to ourselves and how do we change the negative to a positive?
  • Visualization and progressive muscle relaxation
  • Self-confidence
  • Performance anxiety

“Our goals of starting the program were to obviously provide a service to our members and the Ann Arbor community, reduce the stigma of mental health and educate the swimmers and parents, and also educate the coaches on how to improve as well,” Head Coach Gunnar Schmidt told SwimSwam. “We also wanted to bring awareness to mental health in our sport and all athletics, and lead Michigan swimming and USA Swimming in the club sense.”

Klueh doesn’t just rattle off information — she teaches athletes how to carry out strategies.

“Having these sessions more interactive is important so there are videos, conversations, questions, and smaller group break out parts. It is important that I not just teach a concept but they understand how to implement it in their lives,” she told SwimSwam. “I also try to add parts on team culture and how to use these concepts not just in their life but in creating a positive team culture.”


Read the rest of the story on SwimSwam.com.

U-M Wrestler Coon Featured in Video About Injury, Mental Health

ANN ARBOR, Mich. – Athletes Connected, a University of Michigan collaborative program between the Depression Center, Intercollegiate Athletics and School of Public Health, on Thursday unveiled the first of three videos that will address student-athletes coping with injury.

In the first installment, U-M wrestler and two-time All-American Adam Coon (heavyweight) details his long road back from a shoulder injury suffered in 2016. Coon narrowly missed out on the Rio Olympics, was tabbed to travel as a training partner in Brazil, but suffered a torn labrum, which knocked him out for the training trip as well as the entire 2016-17 competitive season.

The story, told exclusively by Coon, details his struggle from initial injury and diagnosis. He learns how pain can go beyond the physical as his identity as an active world-class athlete was stripped way. He felt isolated and helpless, while questioning his self-worth.

As Coon’s progress through rehabilitation continued, he learned to accept the process, which makes the recovery easier. As time went on, Coon was able to focus on himself, his own recovery and not compare himself to his healthy teammates. Now, a full year past his surgery, Coon is ready for his redshirt-senior season in the hopes of earning a third All-America distinction.

Season-Ending Injury; ADAM COON, Wrestling

About Athletes Connected

Formed in 2014 on an NCAA pilot grant by a collaboration of University of Michigan Depression Center, Athletics and School of Public Health, Athletes Connected actively works to provide student-athletes with the tools and resources possible to overcome mental illness. Athletes Connected does this by promoting awareness of mental health issues, reducing the stigma of help-seeking and promoting positive coping skills among student-athletes. To learn more about the program, view the entire catalogue of videos, read original stories and access helpful resources, visit athletesconnected.umich.edu.